They write to me that perhaps we will be able to love in the next life.
Why would I love those who break oaths continually? Li and I agreed this was the last time, and he left again. That is not love, and it is not respect.
I rescind my oaths. If Li should attempt to return, and I find myself weak, Mikael will enact the more ancient tradition, I think. If I ask nicely.
In truth it is a great sorrow. But I see more clearly. I did truly come to open my heart again to Li. I felt that if I were to follow the marriage and the oath of Consort and Queen, I must truly do so, in the spirit in which they were made. And I found again the person that I loved and respected enough to make the oaths in the first place. I had great hope for our future together. But today, he ended it again, and I had set my line.
So there it is.