I sent this message to San a few days ago:
I think soon we will have your son be born, the weekend which follows this one. I tell you only to offer you to be there if you like and if your system permits. We respect that you are the father and have some claim. If you wish to be there, we will arrange it according to your schedule.
For everyone’s sake no discussion will be permitted that does not pertain to the child in some way, should you choose to attend. I think one half hour would suffice.
But of course there was no answer.
This is one of the profoundest mysteries; why would he beget a child on Magdalena if they were leaving us?
Some among us would slaughter all the children of Lynn and this system in revenge, but we stay their hands. In having them we gave this up. Perhaps I regret it.
It has been over one month and one would think it would ease, but it does not. Sometimes I think they wait for us to divorce them, so that they may say it was our decision.